love

i know this blog is dead.and i'm blogging this because i have no elsewhere to let off my feeling and if i don't let it go sooner or later...i'm afraid i'll die of suffocation.

i dont know how to choose.i don't know what i am doing.i don't know whether i'm making the right choice.i don't know whether i love u more or love him more....and honestly..i'm tired of loving.i'm tired.so tired...why can't we just end all of this?maybe i'm not the right one for both of you.....so do you guys...why don't just everyone gives up?i'm afraid of hurting u.i'm afraid of hurting him...and i just need some space to be free..some time to breathe....and some dignity to keep me live on......please...please..just let me make one decision god......please...if i can't make the decision.i rather i'm all alone....without any disturbance...without any decisions...without any love...i don't know which of u are true to me..i don't know which of u love me.and i just don't know which of u r real and sure.....i just don't know..i suddenly realised that love is NOT that romantic at all....i just want to be happy without hurting each other...i just want to be happy..i really really really hate the way things turn out to be..so..please....i really feel i'm suffering now.....