love

i know this blog is dead.and i'm blogging this because i have no elsewhere to let off my feeling and if i don't let it go sooner or later...i'm afraid i'll die of suffocation.

i dont know how to choose.i don't know what i am doing.i don't know whether i'm making the right choice.i don't know whether i love u more or love him more....and honestly..i'm tired of loving.i'm tired.so tired...why can't we just end all of this?maybe i'm not the right one for both of you.....so do you guys...why don't just everyone gives up?i'm afraid of hurting u.i'm afraid of hurting him...and i just need some space to be free..some time to breathe....and some dignity to keep me live on......please...please..just let me make one decision god......please...if i can't make the decision.i rather i'm all alone....without any disturbance...without any decisions...without any love...i don't know which of u are true to me..i don't know which of u love me.and i just don't know which of u r real and sure.....i just don't know..i suddenly realised that love is NOT that romantic at all....i just want to be happy without hurting each other...i just want to be happy..i really really really hate the way things turn out to be..so..please....i really feel i'm suffering now.....

I'm back!=)

okay..finally finished my finals..*phews*...but i still can't upload much 1st....coz I need to re-arrange my feelings mentally....my bro has gone to Japan to further his study...i really miss him....thou we always argued...but i still love him dearly..it will be 2 years....when I will see him again..haihz..

stupid fella!anatawa paka-yaro! ahok!=(..leaves me here for 2 years..

please come back faster...=(..I miss you.

very busy term

okay..I owe u guys a BIG sorry...so here it comes.....

SORRY!

SORRY!

SORRY!

hey,don't be so greedy ah...I gave u two EXTRA sorry already ah...don't be so 'small gas' ah..

I know I abandoned the blog too long already ...but but....u know tarc is really working our asses off with the stupid finals...they are RIPPING my heart out and of course making blood and all the liquid oozing out from my brain...which makes me brainless?(-_-')

I promise a long longggggggggg post after my finals kay?until then

TOODLES!

sorry to everyone..especially my blog readers(if i do have any..(-_-'))..here's an update!

First of all.....I need to say sorry..to my blog..yup..no mistakes..MY blog...for abandoned you as sherry said..poor blog of mine....abandoned by heartless owner like me..=P..


see sherry?I already apologized to my blog lah...so don't pity 'it' already..^^


U see.I've got few reasons for my late and lack of updates...1st of all.my college schedule is really absolutely hectic..(-_-')..i've just finished my 1st mid-term exam last 4 weeks..n now my 2nd midterm is going to be next week...OMG...did pretty good for my microeconomics paper....n business statistics too...



but now the business statistics is going to be way too hard for me..=(..I'm going die from it.....haihz....My add maths already so weak when I was in high school..haihzzzzzz



and 2 more things to announce..one good one bad.....U guys prefer which 1st?let see.....i think U guys will prefer to hear the bad one 1st..why? kiasu lor....lol...joking joking...a lah...must be humour a bit mah...=D



Bad news:..My baby is in Phillipines now...will be back on 2nd of Aug only..ya..he will be back every 3 weeks...then need to fly back to Phillipines to work..=(...haihz...kesian me.....

Good news:..chuckles*..I found a job at last!now now...let u guess 1st...=P...a promoter?(nah....my legs too weak)...a direct sales girl?(nah...I'm too lazy to walk)...a model?(gosh* i hope so too=P)...so the answer is..................................................................................

TA-DA!

A PART-TIME TUTOR!....my dream job..it's always been my dream to be a teacher^^..especially to the children ones..=P

so...i talked too much..it's time to update my photos......(*p/s..u know i work real hard to edit the pics to be smaller..so praise a bit lah..=P)

WARNING

these pics are not well-edited...95% was not edited...so please do not mind if u saw anything other than flawless beautiful faces..=p

the perfume that I previously mentioned..wanginya..=)

MY LATEST CRAVINGS

i just love Japanese thin chocolates..yummylicious!

MR NG YEW KEN'S birthday!

I rushed to get him these..=)..missed my class u know..=P..see I'm such a good friend.

paiseh-nya


*chanting* I'm going to be a millionaire...I'm going to be a millionaire




celebrity-ish poise

mr.Lance..=P


Few Days before my exam and baby's

I did not wear any makeup...at home mah..so pretty for what..

rajin-nya

MY DOGGIE:ROCKY

he looked like a dog priest right?lol
chuckles*..he looked like he really stucked out its tongue..n bleuk!

hurt him?u are dead.=)

posing with my latest sunglasses..=D..but it's gone now=(

mr weng boon..fall asleep with such a cool pose in lecture class..poor guy..=P

few minutes later....

yorr...tak boleh tahan lagi lah..tidur aja lah

YUMCHA SESSION WITH PIKWAN,EK,WB

looked like i just got up from a coffin..(-_-')

bunny teeth^^

*thumbs down*

hot chocolate...looked like a mild milo to me more(-_-')

the so-called seafood mee...saw any seafood?i saw 3 veggies oni

yucks!

coke chicken:GOSH...DON' EVER TRY TO ORDER THIS!DON'TTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

my all time fav

i should put on more makeup(--')...i'm such a lazy bum sometimes...oni put some concealor

i love!i love!yums yums

ya...i forced him to eat..=P.i'm evil

my long hair...i mean straight long hair are back..even for a while

he cuts his too!

moments later..my hair becomes this short

lok-lok with so poh!

they brightened my day,dear.thanks!=)

Another yum cha session at Prince Cafe,Metro Prima

tasted like a cough syrup(-_-')

cough syrup with a hint of caramel(-_-')

KIDDIES TIME!^^

This is specially dedicated to meng hong..because he helped me lots in fixing my comp..lol

he has an angelic face leh..giggles*

there's still lots of pics..but I will spare your eyes for now..because I already wasted almost 2 hrs to blog(-_-')....my exam is only a week away...gosh*

a cretin.

mr ???says:
hey
mr ???says:
wanan yum cha today
my both tayars oni kena ppl cucuk today
Halcali says:
n kena saman also
Halcali says:
my mum will kill me if i go out again
mr ??? says:
where u stay?
mr ??? says:
i fetch u la
mr ???says:
u said ur god bro lor
Halcali says:
lol
Halcali says:
really cannot ts weeknext week exam alreadysorryask other lucky leng luis out lah
mr ???says:
enough
mr ??? says:
u can reject me
mr???says:
but u cant push me to others
mr ???says:
fuck
mr ???says:
i am not a goods ok?
mr ??? says:
back

few minutes later...

mr ??? says:
weii
Halcali says:
mr ???y,for your infoI despise ppl who r totally aboslutely moraally rude to me wle I just being politeI decline ur offer becoz I'm really buzyBUT i do decline politely as I knowI'm NOT ur puncng bagplease do NOT use the word f*ck as u likeit does not only hurts others but u hurt URSELF morallyand please dont let your temper out on meI hate iti've GOT temper n MORAL too
Halcali says:
from ts pointi dont want a fre like u anymoreI don't like ppl who doesnt appreciate men scold me like a dogi'm a human oh yaPLEASE control ur temperI treat u as HUMAN not a GOOD.bye
!
he scolded me and few minutes later..he's like saying 'hello' to me?as if nth happened? gosh*...chi sin

conclusion:this a random conversation from a very %$%^$^%$% msn HUMAN.he pissed me off and I have no choice but to let my anger off through this way.so..DON'T piss me off.=).

long post...i think(-_-')

ok...one thing I need to announce...it's a need ...not want..so I'll do it right now..right at this minute...

I F*CKING HATE COLLEGE!I HATE IT AS MUCH AS I HATE ADDMATHS!!!!DAMN THE COLLEGE!DAMN THE LECTURERS!DAMN THOSE PEOPLE!N ONE MORE THING DAMN THE STUPID ASSIGNMENTS AND COMPLICATED NOTES!!!!!!!!!DAMN MICROECONOMICS!F*CK!

I'm gonna be very extremely bitchy at this moment?Why?coz I'm damn emotional now!blames who?the college!I'm under VERY serious tension..=(

I really don't want to say this..but I'm afraid that if I don't say it out,I might end up at either tawakal or bahagia the very next day!

first.I don't want to sound like a real bimbo..but i really can't help it...I mean the environment in tarc really doesn't suits me..it is totally Not the same as I imagine before I enrolled to the college...(-_-')..I mean wth will wear harajuku style to college?with LONG black socks,with PINK ribbons on them..gosh*..n colorful BIG BIG hairband and very stand out colorful berlapis-lapis punya baju?haihz*..and guys....speechless*.totally spoiled my study mood

2nd..wth will speak VERY vulgar words like you are speaking any normal kind of languages on the roads?no no..that's understatement..i mean wth wil SHOUT bad words..like u r singing lullaby to a child??(-_-')...students...haihz.....

3rd those lecturers...I admit some of them are really fine lecturers..with fair command of english.but some..I do NOT mean that my english is better than theirs..but because I know that my command in english is not reliable..so I expect my Lecturers to set themselves as good examples for me..I want to learn from them..but the result? ............dissapointing..............

4th...their parkings are...only a word can define their parking system...scary

5th..learnings from some lecturers...are bored..no...worse than bored..I mean I totally DON'T understand what's the course is about....this is my very first time that I can sit in a class listen for hours but don't understand a single thing *..even when i was in highschool...I still understand a bit of addmaths thou..i'm not good in it*..haihz

6th..their food sucks...

conclusion:I'm dissapoint with tarc...so maybe I'll change to other college...*but i scared I can't adapt in other college's environment too...i scared that other colleges environmant will be like here's too*

okay finish bitching.

baby and i went to eat at bbq plaza and chilis few weeks ago...*thumbs up*..thou their food are yummy....but i found out that their service and government tax...are..whoa*...I mean 15% leh...not little de leh...that time taxed me RM10 leh*ouch* didn't i tell u that I'm a stingy person?lol

*pics up next time*

oh ya..I bought something at lasttttttt...to relieve myself from tension and to ease my longing for it..=)...and I let u guys guess what it is first..i'll post its pics up in next post....wanginya..=D

I'm lazy to upload pics lah..stop shooting me lah. pain one ah.I promise lah..next time lah...=)

sick

I've had my orientation day last wednesday.and it sucks!totally absolutely damn idiotic.I skipped it. on my very 1st day.can't imagine for the upcoming days.(-_-')


and it made me sick.I've caught a flu and fever after back from the stupid orientation.duh*..so tell me..how can i not hate it?


darling sherry came.gave me clothes and pair of golden earrings...oh..she's such a darling rite?i mean WHO will remember to bring u some gifts when u back from holiday?oh...it's my honour..I'm sure sherry is hiding away in the corner n 'hee hee hee' now...lol


*pics up next time*...